Interrupting my lack of posts to say: I made a goodreads and if you also use goodreads, you should reply to this post. Because books are the best.
That is all. I hope you’re all having swell summers.
I’m making a new blog
If you’d like the URL feel free to shoot me a message
Do not chase
Do not wear the soles of your shoes
Down on boys
Who won’t cradle your feet
In their laps
Do not waste
Exhaust your tongue
In the silent poetry
Who don’t exhale
Like a prayer
(Source: thevirtualhermit, via thevirtualhermit)
Tomorrow is my last day of high school
It’s so weird because I remember when my brother graduated and I felt like it’d be forever until I was old enough to be sitting there in a cap and gown of my own. I hated high school a lot and I could never do it again, but this year has actually been the best so far and I’m a bit sad that it’s ending and that I’m never going to see anyone again. Life’s strange.
Thursday: got a $500 scholarship
Friday: saw into the woods
Saturday: slept, worked, slept
Sunday: senior send off, frozen yogurt, small party
Today: beach, sandcastles, elephant project
Graduation is so soon. And I’m feeling very strange. And I’m nervous about singing and saying goodbyes and moving across the country after summer. It’s weird to grow up somewhere for 18 years and see the same people everyday and then one day your paths split off into 400 directions and you never see each other again. Ahhhh.
I’m going to write a choose your own adventure novel. And judging by this example story map, it will be a complicated and annoying experience.
"It’s about misunderstandings between people and places, being disconnected and looking for moments of connection. There are so many moments in life when people don’t say what they mean, when they are just missing each other, waiting to run into each other in a hallway."
-Thursday I went on a rollercoaster for the first time. And the second. And the tenth. And it was a really great night.
-Saturday I had dinner with my parents and their friends and we played Game of Things and it got weird…super weird
-Sunday I watched Goats and went shopping and slept a ton
-my calculus project is about elephants
-today was my Dad’s 50th birthday and we went out to dinner and the waiter looked like “The Douche” from parks and rec and it was nice to spend time as a family
-I’m graduating in a week and singing the Weepies with a good friend in front of a ton of people and I may or may not pee my pants
-this Thursday is scholarship night AKA free money
-work has been good and sufficiently strange
-I’m trying to be happy and it’s mostly working
"the year of letting go
of understanding loss, grace of the word ‘no’
and also being able to say ‘you are not kind’
the year of humanity/humility
when the whole world couldn’t get out of bed
everyone i’ve met this year says the same thing
‘you are so easy to be around, how do you do that?’
the year i broke open and dug out all the rot with own hands
the year i learnt small talk
and how to smile at strangers
the year i understood that i am my best when i reach out and ask ‘do you want to be my friend?’
the year of sugar, everywhere
softness. sweetness. honey honey.
the year of being alone
and learning how much i like it
the year of hugging people i don’t know because i want to know them
the year i made peace and love
The cows behind my house
Won’t stop mooing because
It’s hot and they are tired
And no one has told them it’s bedtime
I’ve been shifting in these sheets for hours
Trying to get your footprints
Out of my brain
But the entire universe is pressing on my chest
Everything is ending
And lighting itself on fire
"No matter how you get there or where you end up, human beings have this miraculous gift to make that place home."